Just wanted to report that I’m killing it in the gym at lunch time. I’m feeling amazing and I’m so glad that I have made the effort in the past two weeks to commit to this plan of action. No results on the scale just yet and no results as far as how my clothing is fitting, but BIG results in moods being boosted and stress reduction.
I got really smart last Friday. “Self,” I said, “if you’re too tired to go to the gym by the time you get home, why wait until you get home to go to the gym?”
I joined the 24 hour gym next to my work. Yes, it’s another $40/month, on top of the family gym pass I have at the local rec centre, but I’m thinking of it as more of an investment than another expense.
I have gone 5 lunch hours in a row and I’m feeling great! I take my pre-workout at 11:30, then by 12 I’m out of the office and back by 1. I find I don’t hit the 3pm wall–my afternoons are focused and I’m able to be productive all day. My mood has also lifted significantly, overall. I am eating well–I don’t want to undo all my good work.
The other day, I watched as the girls from another department all went out for lunch…at first I was a bit bummed that I hadn’t gotten an invite (I’m a department of one, so it can be a bit solitary)…but then I was actually and genuinely thankful that I didn’t have to consult with anyone and that my plans weren’t derailed in any way; being a lone wolf has its benefits.
I’ve decided to compete in Spring, Summer, and Fall next year: nearly a full year of being competition ready. It’s going to be a huge challenge, but I think it will ultimately be very rewarding.
For now, though, I’m going to get back into my gym routine (still going 5 – 6 days/week), 80/20 split when it comes to eating (80% clean, nutritious food; 20% wiggle room to ingest things like red wine, bread, and potatoes), and finding new ways to get out of the gym and have fun!
I am also starting to work on my own fitness and personal development company! I’m aiming for a January 2013 launch, but it depends on my ability to get my poop in a group. It will be a great opportunity to share my love of fitness with others and hopefully make a positive impact along the way.
It’s a bit weird, not having to rush around to the gym a couple times a day, not worrying about whether or not I can eat carbs, and to be able to let my skin resume being near-translucent. I feel a little bit of shell-shock from all the down-time I now have. I hope that this and my bizarre food cravings will dissipate by the end of the week.
We all have them: those days where you feel like you aren’t strong enough, fast enough, or good enough. I had one of those yesterday. I completed every set, every rep, and even did a few extras to show-off. I challenged myself and pushed hard. The wheels started spinning during my last set–I couldn’t stand being in my own skin for another minute. I started thinking about all the little cheats that I’ve been allowing myself here and there…the near 15-year love-affair with cigarettes…the booze…the wasted hang-over days…the overall pollution to which I’ve subjected myself.
Yeah, it was a real bummer.
Instead of loving myself for making positive changes and being dedicated, I was beating myself up for the things in the past that I can’t possibly change. This was totally counter-productive; I know this innately, but hearing it from my partner, during a much-needed pep-talk, helped.
I’ve decided that I need to be proactive when it comes to combatting a negative outlook during this journey to competition day, here are a few strategies I’m going to employ:
1. Yoga. I find yoga makes me feel connected in mind and body and I am able to shut out nearly every thought that doesn’t have to do with my immediate physical situation. Karma classes at Moksha are in order.
2. Organization. I’m feeling cluttered on a lot of levels right now. I’m going to pare down my worldly possessions and find a home for all of them. Keeping my stuff in order will maybe help me feel more prepared to compete.
3. Present-mindedness. A conscious effort needs to be made to stop planning for the future, quit reflecting on the past, and just stay in the moment. This applies to all areas of my life.
4. More fun. Why so serious? It’s time to do a few pelvic thrusts in life’s general direction, get the lead out, and shake the cobwebs out from betwixt my ears. I have a trip to Montreal happening this week, I think it’s just what the doctor ordered.
Today was a better gym day; I kept picturing myself on stage and imagining the feeling of accomplishment that will wash over me when I win first-place.